May 162011
 

Enough of the training wheels. It was time to take the challenge one step further. Roy was not exactly sure if he wanted to go onto a bicycle. But we insisted. We thought he is old enough to try a real bike. Bye bye training wheels!

I wasn’t there for him on the first day, coz I didn’t even know he was trying the bike out with the care-giver, without letting me know. But I participated on the second day of the training. It was fun to watch. The little one was eager but a bit anxious. He wasn’t sure but wanted to give it a try. He wanted to know if he could do it, yet at the same time kept checking to see if dad was still holding his bike seat. All the mixed feelings made the scene so…I don’t even know how to describe it in words. When he almost succeeded, I found myself shedding tears of joy.

Bye bye training wheels, bye bye baby Roy!

 Posted by at 10:26 pm
Feb 282010
 

一個普通不過的動作  – ‘R’ 背脊,令我今日sweet咗成日。

上午,同兩隻小豬玩緊,大豬同我講話背脊好痕,要我幫佢’R'吓。佢皮膚比較乾,好多時都會話痕,但通常會自己’R',又或者我會叫佢搽D cream,都會好D。今日我都有叫佢搽 cream,但佢叫我幫佢’R',no problem!

‘R’ ‘R’ 吓佢話好舒服,唔俾我「收手」。佢原本係「立正」俾我’R',但我舉手舉到有D攰,就叫佢趴在我腳上。佢一趴,就趴咗成十分鐘。全程話好舒服,不停甜笑,又叫我’R'到100下先停,仲約我再’R'。好久冇同D豬仔咁close,sweet 到漏油。

阿仔,你開聲,媽媽「仆倒」嚟幫你再’R'背脊!

 Posted by at 12:45 am
Jan 122010
 

I am a happy receiver of unconditional love – daily! I really enjoy it when my sons run to me; when they feel the needs to hold (squeeze) my hands; when they cling onto me in danger or sadness. It feels good to be loved and trusted – unconditionally.

However, do you remember the love you gave your parents unconditionally when you were young?
I don’t.

Do we give others unconditional love and trust as a grown-up?
Not really.

Do you still love and trust your parents unconditionally?
Alas! I am glad that my answer is YES to this question.

What are your answers to these questions?

 Posted by at 11:58 pm
Dec 262009
 

話咁快,哥哥四歲啦!每逢哥哥生日,以下的畫面都會在我腦海再出現…

2005年,冬至後作動入醫院,陣痛二十四小時後,仔仔平安夜凌晨出世,一家人歡天喜地。十二小時後,負責檢查的醫生走入我病房,我以為好似電視劇咁,佢會恭喜我同Steve。哈!佢竟然一開口,連稱呼都冇,就同我講﹕「你個仔有D問題。」然後一口氣講出哥哥幾個問題,講到阿仔好似外星人咁,我仲以為自己生咗隻羅茲威爾(The alien from Roswell)。

對唔住,我真係接受唔到,要醫生repeat又repeat。醫生話眼睛大和下巴較短會係某種綜合症嘅symptoms之一,但佢又講唔出係乜綜合症,只係話仔仔好有問題,都真係幾嬲。

那一刻開始,我覺得我的人生已完了!生咗個有缺憾嘅小朋友,點算?
那一刻開始,「擔心」已成了我生命的一部份!好擔心小朋友的將來,他會OK嗎?

再擔心,日子都總要過。在擔心的日子裡,學會了堅強,學會了知足,亦學會了世事不會往往如人意。與其問點解,怨天,倒不如努力解決問題。

話咁快就四年啦,那些頻密出入醫院的日子已經捱過咗,只希望仔仔以後的路會越行越順,身體一年比一年好,再冇其他要求。每次當我聽到其他父母在談論如何催谷自己的小朋友時,我從來唔會參與,因為我在哥哥受盡身心的痛苦時,跟他承諾過不會讓他再受不必要的壓力。仔仔,媽媽一定會堅守承諾!

Dec 212009
 

我屋企多咗個外星人,佢操流利太空話,冇人聽得明佢嘅內容,只有哥哥同佢有對答,但哥哥只係同佢講 No, No, No,好攪笑。

你會話︰『唓!個個BB都係先講BB話,然後再慢慢學說話的。有幾得意呀?』

如果你有小朋友,我會同你講︰『你實在係身在腹中不知福。我大仔九個月大就會叫媽媽,一直到兩歲都只會叫媽媽,連爸爸都不懂叫。因為先天缺憾的關係,我們唯有不斷帶他見言語治療師。學了半年都只係叫媽媽,實在令人擔心和氣餒。』

在他兩歲半時,就像治療師所講一樣,在沒有經過太空話的階段下,哥哥突然懂得說話。我想,只要哥哥會說話,過程是如何,已經不再重要。話雖如此,當我今日第一次聽到細佬嘅太空話,心裡有說不出的喜悅。

外星人細佬,thank you!

 Posted by at 10:20 pm