四歲啦！

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Dec 262009

話咁快，哥哥四歲啦！每逢哥哥生日，以下的畫面都會在我腦海再出現…

2005年，冬至後作動入醫院，陣痛二十四小時後，仔仔平安夜凌晨出世，一家人歡天喜地。十二小時後，負責檢查的醫生走入我病房，我以為好似電視劇咁，佢會恭喜我同Steve。哈！佢竟然一開口，連稱呼都冇，就同我講﹕「你個仔有D問題。」然後一口氣講出哥哥幾個問題，講到阿仔好似外星人咁，我仲以為自己生咗隻羅茲威爾(The alien from Roswell)。

對唔住，我真係接受唔到，要醫生repeat又repeat。醫生話眼睛大和下巴較短會係某種綜合症嘅symptoms之一，但佢又講唔出係乜綜合症，只係話仔仔好有問題，都真係幾嬲。

那一刻開始，我覺得我的人生已完了！生咗個有缺憾嘅小朋友，點算？
那一刻開始，「擔心」已成了我生命的一部份！好擔心小朋友的將來，他會OK嗎？

再擔心，日子都總要過。在擔心的日子裡，學會了堅強，學會了知足，亦學會了世事不會往往如人意。與其問點解，怨天，倒不如努力解決問題。

話咁快就四年啦，那些頻密出入醫院的日子已經捱過咗，只希望仔仔以後的路會越行越順，身體一年比一年好，再冇其他要求。每次當我聽到其他父母在談論如何催谷自己的小朋友時，我從來唔會參與，因為我在哥哥受盡身心的痛苦時，跟他承諾過不會讓他再受不必要的壓力。仔仔，媽媽一定會堅守承諾！

Posted by Ada at 1:02 am Tagged with: , , ,

外星人

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Dec 212009

我屋企多咗個外星人，佢操流利太空話，冇人聽得明佢嘅內容，只有哥哥同佢有對答，但哥哥只係同佢講 No, No, No，好攪笑。

你會話︰『唓！個個BB都係先講BB話，然後再慢慢學說話的。有幾得意呀？』

如果你有小朋友，我會同你講︰『你實在係身在腹中不知福。我大仔九個月大就會叫媽媽，一直到兩歲都只會叫媽媽，連爸爸都不懂叫。因為先天缺憾的關係，我們唯有不斷帶他見言語治療師。學了半年都只係叫媽媽，實在令人擔心和氣餒。』

在他兩歲半時，就像治療師所講一樣，在沒有經過太空話的階段下，哥哥突然懂得說話。我想，只要哥哥會說話，過程是如何，已經不再重要。話雖如此，當我今日第一次聽到細佬嘅太空話，心裡有說不出的喜悅。

外星人細佬，thank you！

Posted by Ada at 10:20 pm

祝你 身體健康

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Dec 192009

你有住過醫院嗎？我有。一共四次。如你從沒有住過醫院，衷心希望你永遠沒有這個機會。

每次躺在病床上，都是百般滋味。有欣喜﹑有憂心﹑也有恐懼。在病床上的時間一點也不好過。

我第一次住醫院，是十八年前。當時年紀輕，冇乜話驚唔驚。只記得做完手術好快行得走得去shopping，後生真可愛。

第二次住醫院，是當大兒子出生時。大仔出世喎，一定好開心啦。但奈何偏偏出了岔子，大仔有點缺憾 (之前冇驗到的），令我倆心情由天上跌到谷底。更要擔心兒子的將來。好恨醫院，好恨醫院內一切一切。

第三次，是次子出世。有了大仔的遭遇，今次其實是懷著忐忑的心情入院。經過二十四小時的陣痛，醫生告訴我小兒一切安好，開心得兩晚睡不著。醫院內一切一切也變得美好。

早兩天是第四次，當然希望是最後一次。今次做手術之前，猶豫了好耐，錢是一個問題，但更擔心手術會否出問題，有否後遺症，會否就此死去，再見不到身邊的人，再見不到兒子。有十萬個問號在腦內亂轉，恐懼指數爆燈！跟醫生商討後，最後都是聽了醫生的意見，做了手術。做完手術的迷糊，傷口的痛，一點也不好受。我只希望，以後也不再需要受這種身心上的折磨。

我再次衷心祝願各位身體健康，沒有住醫院的機會。要長期望住醫院的天花板，再有錢都冇用。

祝你
身體健康！

Posted by Ada at 10:53 pm Tagged with: ,

Beijing is not a tourist-friendly city - Part 3

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Nov 162009

The last thing that we did was sight-seeing, of course. We went to the Great Wall – Badaling, South LuoGu Lane, Tiananmen Square, Bird’s nest and the Olympic park, and also Tianjian via the express train.

The Great Wall – Badaling - nothing to pick on. I am so proud of what our ancestors have left us. However, there were still tourists spitting everywhere, even from high above. So beware! I did take a very funky picture with some other tourists – we all leaned back in this picture, it was tough! Check it out!
Crazy picture at the Great Wall



South LuoGu Lane – I was told to visit here. It is the best preserved lanes of old Beijing. The preservation idea was good but I don’t think it was done properly. South LuoGu Lane - 2South LuoGu Lane - 1 The entire district is now commericalized, with building fronts greatly altered, so a large part of originality is lost. Nevertheless, it was a good leisure walk inside the humming and buzzing right in the city center.






We went to the Tiananmen Square to watch the lowering of the national flag. Obviously, it was not as emotional as the raising ceremony. But watching the soldiers marched across the Chang An street when all the traffic was stopped. It was quite interesting.Tiananmen Square

Posted by Ada at 12:46 pm Tagged with: , , , ,

Beijing is not a tourist-friendly city - Part 2

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Nov 052009

Subway
Subway map and fare
Subway is cheap! RMB 2 wherever you go. But the people ARE rude. They will push you around, they will poke you, they will cast evil eyes on you if you try to grab a seat. This is just BAD! The worst part? People talk VERY VERY loud. I am serious. Unlike Hong Kong people, who are usually more shy and self-conscious, people in Beijing talk really loud, everywhere, and anywhere. This makes the place quite noisy.
Staff at the ticket / information booth were not the most helpful. They were always in a rush to answer questions. And they had a way to make you feel that you are taking too much of their time.
The subway was is very good. All the different routes are numbered. We could find our way around the city quite easily. However, the city map that we have is not detailed enough. We have got lost quite a few times AFTER we got off the subway stations. When the streets are cold and dark (because there were very little street lights), it is not a pleasant thing to get lost, even in a big city.

People
Well…they are very divided. They are the real city-dwellers who are too busy to even cast an eye on a tourist; and those who are eager to help a stranger on a bus. We have met both. And of course the latter one will make you feel welcomed and warm in the big city. The usual city-dwellers simply did not give me a chance to rest on my vacation. They made me feel like I had to compete with them everywhere in the city, all the time. This was NOT a relaxing trip that I wanted. I should go somewhere with only beaches and sun next time.
Tourism fail!

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